So, yes, I have put on a little weight since coming back here. It was inevitable. Not having room to exercise, and not really being able to take as many walks as before, it has all made a dent. As has access to Food. With a capital ‘F'. My gods, but the UK is full of food. Good and bad food. But so much of it! (Or it feels as if there is, to my mind at least!!)
But my excuses, well, not that any are actually forthcoming on this particular post apart from the pseudo ones above, are not needed.
The annoying thing is that I'm heading precariously back in the direction of the mindset of O MY GODS BUT I AM HUGE AND HORRIBLE AND NO-ONE WILL APPRECIATE ME AND OH OH OH I'M A USELESS HUMAN BEING and it is a silly mindset. Silly.
Therefore this post is to affirm how fabulous I am. At least in a couple of things!
See this? This was in 2005. Portugal, a few days before I broke my foot. Hilarious person, seemingly full of life, always making folk crack up with laughter, trying to ‘make up' for the fact that I am large.
This was in 2015. Still enjoying making people laugh, but not using it so much as a diverting tactic. It seems that clown part of me is a good part, after all!
This was in 2009. I made that dress. I was very proud of it. I have it still, and one day I'll learn the skills to take it in from, I guess, a size 30 down to a size 18/20.
This was in 2015. In the ‘Twenty-Seven, uh wait, Five Dresses' post, I did succeed once in making an excellent alteration to one dress! The dress in the picture below, in fact!!
This was in 2010. My Little Brain Weasel™ (like My Little Pony but less cute toy, and more evil destroyer of self-confidence) is telling me “Let's not open our mouth too wide, or that quadruple chin will be caught on video for ever".
This was in 2016. I believe the term is called ‘Ah, Feck It, Let's Just Gie It Laldie!'
This was in 2011. My Little Brain Weasel™ says “Hide! Hide those chins! HIDE, I SAY!"
This was in 2017. Ach, still chins, but still dimples, too, so deal with it, My Little Brain Weasel™!
I do admit to myself now that I was at least a little fabulous before, too. I just wasn't in the right place, mind-wise, to appreciate it. I do wish I had known I wasn't truly horrendous when I was younger, but hind-sight is 20/20, as they say. But being fabulous and fit(ish) is better all round for me now, and just because I'm in a little slump losing-weight-wise at the moment, it doesn't mean to say that I'll end up back where I started. I've learned too much about myself for that to happen.
(One thing I've learned is that I appear to be made up of cookies and nature walks... But in the end, Gloria Gaynor said it best: I am what I am, and what I am needs no excuses!!)
This was in 2015. Still enjoying making people laugh, but not using it so much as a diverting tactic. It seems that clown part of me is a good part, after all!
This was in 2009. I made that dress. I was very proud of it. I have it still, and one day I'll learn the skills to take it in from, I guess, a size 30 down to a size 18/20.
This was in 2015. In the ‘Twenty-Seven, uh wait, Five Dresses' post, I did succeed once in making an excellent alteration to one dress! The dress in the picture below, in fact!!
This was in 2010. My Little Brain Weasel™ (like My Little Pony but less cute toy, and more evil destroyer of self-confidence) is telling me “Let's not open our mouth too wide, or that quadruple chin will be caught on video for ever".
This was in 2016. I believe the term is called ‘Ah, Feck It, Let's Just Gie It Laldie!'
This was in 2011. My Little Brain Weasel™ says “Hide! Hide those chins! HIDE, I SAY!"
This was in 2017. Ach, still chins, but still dimples, too, so deal with it, My Little Brain Weasel™!
I do admit to myself now that I was at least a little fabulous before, too. I just wasn't in the right place, mind-wise, to appreciate it. I do wish I had known I wasn't truly horrendous when I was younger, but hind-sight is 20/20, as they say. But being fabulous and fit(ish) is better all round for me now, and just because I'm in a little slump losing-weight-wise at the moment, it doesn't mean to say that I'll end up back where I started. I've learned too much about myself for that to happen.
(One thing I've learned is that I appear to be made up of cookies and nature walks... But in the end, Gloria Gaynor said it best: I am what I am, and what I am needs no excuses!!)
You rock, girl!
ReplyDeleteFabulous then and now. Don't you forget it!
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DeleteNo doubt you are fabulous, then, now and for ever, darling! Cheers!
ReplyDeleteNeither excuses nor apologies of any sort needed - you are quite perfect as you are.
ReplyDeleteLoving yourself is the alfa and omega of self care. I am glad you see how fabulous you are and always have been. We can choose to lose weight for personal reasons, but we should never let society tell is that we are not worthy UNLESS we do.
ReplyDeleteBtw, do you know Scarlett and Jo clothing? I am in LOVE with their dresses (sizes 16-32), and they have good sale items too (I got my first one in the sale with an extra 50%off sale price).