Sunday, 1 November 2015

Twenty Seven (Uh, Wait) Five Dresses

“Nic is making heart-breaking decisions over which of her concert gowns are salvageable or not. She has three that just can't be taken in any further without losing their shape entirely, one that was too magnificent to take in but was kept *because* of its very magnificence (bought in Paris in 2001, 1930's style, jet black floor-skimming dress, with a beaded and sunburst halter-neck collar, and matching short-sleeved mandarin collar jacket), and one that was never worn but is just too complicated to alter.

In other news, take note, Queens of Drag - eBay will soon have 5 spectacular evening gowns going for a song!"

They're gorgeous, these dresses, but they have to go and live out the rest of their lives being worn, and not hanging on the back of a bedroom door, loved but useless. It does make me sad, though. I had history with these dresses. Some, perhaps history of the more obscure, or even pernicious in one case, but we've been through a lot together, these dresses and I, and they deserve life back in the limelight, and not a slow fade into dusty obscurity.

But let me present unto you the Fabulous Five Dresses Of Past Glory:

There's the burgundy gown with the white 'underskirt' that I bought new from a seller on eBay in the days before it was inundated with El-Cheapo dresses from China. It was expensive, but still much cheaper than buying in a store, and was nicely made from thick, luxurious satin, complete with pretty crystal and embroidery detailing to the front, finishing with a faux over-skirt/underskirt effect that was the fashion fifteen years ago. (You can still find the style if you search hard enough, but they're really quite the product of their time. I'll attempt to spin that to make it retro and glam when I sell it, though...) 



Then we have the exact same dress, but in pale blue satin and white underskirt, bought a couple of years after the burgundy one. (If it ain't broke, etc.!) This is the dress that only had one outing (for a concert in Portugal), for the simple reason that it was evil. Jinxed. Beset by satin devils who were only content when they caused harm and embarrassment to the wearer, in this case ensuring that a broken zip and a broken foot was the end result of a tumble down stairs outside the venue just after the concert. In front of the entire audience. I haven't worn it since that fall, and it's only today (ten years later) that I finally got round to repairing the zip and making it look all pretty and un-jinxy again. (I shan't be mentioning its ill-fated history on eBay, either. There's no spin doctor in the world that could make that story sound like anything other than a Stephen King novel.)


Next we have the dress I described in the status update. Oh my, but I thought this dress was the bees-knees! I bought it in Paris in 2001, albeit in a discount dress store on the Boulevard de Magenta. Still. I bought it in Paris, and that's what counts. The fabric itself is rather rayonesque, but it draped beautifully. The halter neckline  (although in all honesty one that I should have avoided, having no neck at the time to actually speak of) was a triumph of beading, and matched together with the little jacket, looked like something out of a golden-oldie Hollywood film. It made me feel very glamorous. I managed to time things just about right in the Summer of 2013 and I was able to wear it one last time in concert before it started to swamp me, which was wonderful. (Please excuse the light patches on the photos. The sun shone. My phone's camera wasn't sure what to do with such a rare phenomenon.)




The purple gown is a bit of a mystery to me. I got it in a sale, but I don't remember when. Possibly last millennium. I do have a vague inkling that although I thought it was a tiny bit too small for me at the time, I felt like it was a bargain that had to be snapped up, because it would fit eventually? Ah, I'm rolling my eyes so hard at my past self right now. It's quite a simple dress, with a gorgeous curved V neckline, but you know, I strongly suspect the Cadbury purple colour had a lot to do with the belief that the gown needed to come home with me... It actually fits a little loosely around the hips just now, but because it's such a classic dress there's nowhere to hide my amateur bodice-alteration skills, so it's joining the others in the way of eBay. 



Last is the dress I don't really want to sell yet because I managed to alter it so that it sits nicely at my waist and doesn't gape at my bust, and continues to sit without rucking at my hips even with all my taking in. And I did a fantastic job, even though I say so myself - check out the seven inches in total that I took in at the side and the back. Yes, that's right. SEVEN INCHES in total! Those stitches were tiny, even and beautiful. Not that you can actually tell, given that the dress was chucked on the bed to take an impromptu photo. But they are. Those stitches were exemplary!



I don't really want to sell it because it still fits. Just about. It's on the verge of being baggy, and there's no way I'll be able to take it in anywhere else without making it look like some designer wannabe from Project Runway had a massive amount of fabric to use and got way too creative with ruching. It's such a gorgeous dress; bought on eBay (you may be noticing a trend here) from a private seller in the States around 2004, it fit me absolutely perfectly when it arrived. Described as 'apple red' (which I found charming, because if there's any colour I'm used to associating with apples, it's always green) and beautifully beaded at the bodice and at the opening to the faux underskirt at the back, it was a dream to wear. Once. Then I got too big. And then I got smaller again, thought I'd lost out on being able to garb myself in its glory, then discovered that my sewing skills were enough to render it sing-in-able again!

So it's there, hanging on the back of my bedroom door, waiting to be worn before it's too late. But there's more chance of me being able to sell it if I have other dresses for sale at the same time. Such is the nature of the eBay selling beast. And it won't be long (fingers crossed) before it's not a wearable option any more. I  just can't quite bring myself to attack it with my seam ripper and give it back its former glory.

FOUR DAYS LATER...

Well, attack it with the seam ripper I did. I figured that as I already knew what colours I was to wear for all concerts until March (a combination of certain ensembles having their own colour scheme; and a couple of other soloists who like to organise what dresses they will wear well in advance of the actual performances and wanted to make sure we didn't clash) and that I hope to lose something in the weight department at least by March (the fates willing), Apple Red will be made redundant. And because it's such a glorious gown I'd like someone else to partake of the joy. I was sad to rip out those threads just the same, even though the dress is now back to it's original (and beautiful) dimensions. I hope they all go to people who will enjoy wearing them as much as I have.

:: sobs quietly ::



Friday, 30 October 2015

A Likeness Of Demeter

For all my obvious love of taking shots of the great outdoors, I notice that I rarely take a landscape landscape photograph. I've been looking at photos I took back to when I used a camera, to see whether using a phone has made a recent difference in shot orientation, but it appears that I've just been more of a portrait landscape artist at heart for as long as I've had the means to capture things on film.

Maybe it's my signature outside shot, or maybe I'm a secret nature anthropomorphiciser? Anthropomorphicist? Person who has a tendency to anthropomorphise (aw, c'mon UK English spell-check, I know for sure that last one is a real word) trees and such, and believe, deep down, that they all need up-and-down portrait shots.

Maybe my preference for the lean and not the broad pigeon-holes me as being narrow-minded? I don't think I am, but who knows what hidden secrets of our psyche can be deciphered from the way we hold our photo-taking apparatus! Or maybe it's somehow showing my inner desire to be more svelte and less stout in shape? Or maybe it's because I like to hold the camera or phone in my left hand, palm facing my body to keep the phone steady, and that means by the very nature of my anatomy that it's held portrait style?

Who knows? But I can say for certain that my current photo-taking apparatus had a field day when I took a fifteen-thousand step jaunt round the Clingendael Estate, via the Oosduin-Arendsdorp park. The sun was out, and Ms Autumn was having a grand old time painting with her palette of bright golds, greens, yellows, and oranges. I should just be glad that her canvas isn't restricted to either landscape or portrait!











Monday, 26 October 2015

GF Peanut Butter Banana Bread Of The Gods

Or at least of the Gods that I worship...

I promised you this recipe if the original author's website didn't come back online, and Lo! No website reappearance equals my doing you the HUGE favour of making a loaf of peanut butter banana bread to work up a new post, just because I promised you I'd do it. No other reason. None at all.

You're welcome.

So, for this manna from the GF gods, you need:


250 grams all-purpose gluten free flour
3/4 teaspoon baking soda
1 teaspoon xantham gum
4 medium bananas, mashed (I use 3 bananas and it works out just fine)
130 grams creamy peanut butter
105 grams granulated sugar
110 grams light brown sugar
80 mls buttermilk (I used ordinary milk and added a teaspoon of lemon juice, then left it to set for 5 mins or so)
60 mls olive oil
2 eggs
2 teaspoons vanilla extract

I'll be a little less slap-dash with my directions than I normally am, seeing as there's nowhere for me to link to give you the real directions, so excuse me while I adjust my technical cap a little...

Method:

Preheat oven to 175C and grease the tin/pan/whatever you usually use for cake-loaves. (I use a handy baking spray by Doctor Oetker, but feel free to use whichever method you prefer.) The directions also suggest lining the pan with baking paper so it hangs over the side - to make it easier to pull out, I'm reckoning, but this confuses me... I've found the baking spray to be enough to ensure the bread come out of the pan easily, and adding paper on top of the already-sprayed tin seems... wasteful, somehow, but I'll be happy to be corrected on that point!

Mix dry ingredients (excluding the sugars) together in a medium bowl, then set aside.


In a large bowl blend bananas (already mushed if you're doing it old-school like me), peanut butter, and sugar with a hand mixer until well combined (as you can see, I did mine the old-fashioned way with my trusty plastic bowl and wooden spoon combo), then slowly add the oil, buttermilk, eggs and vanilla.


Add the dry ingredients to the wet and mix until the batter is creamy and well combined.


Pour into the prepared pan and bake for 60 minutes, or until a knife (or cake-tester) comes out clean.
















The suggestion then is to serve with strong coffee on a bright Summer morning, but seeing as we're in Autumn, and even I have a pretentiousness limit, I instead waited until it had cooled, sliced it up, made lots of arty-farty photographs in bad light, and tried to pretty them up with my PC's photo editing software.




Then I divvied up the slabs, stuffed them into bags and wanged them in the freezer.


Sunday, 25 October 2015

Rising Sun In Falling Rain

The Japanese Garden in the Clingendael estate shuts for the season today, and it's absolutely gorgeous weather outside for the closing ceremony. 

Alas, I won't be joining the hordes clamouring for one last look before the gates close to the public until next Spring. My new-found not-hate of small crowds would undoubtedly be stretched beyond its still amorphous borders, and I wouldn't be able to hold myself responsible for all the loud sighing and tsking I'd emit (the extent of which the noticeable signs of my disapproval would manifest). I'd be thinking loud “GET OUT OF MY SHOT" and “PERSONAL SPACE MEANS NOT HAVING TO PUT UP WITH YOUR ELBOW OVER MY FACE JUST BECAUSE YOU WANT TO TAKE A PHOTO FROM THE EXACT SPOT I'M STANDING ON RIGHT NOW, BUT YOU HAD THE MISFORTUNE TO ARRIVE AFTER I DID AND COULDN'T WAIT TEN SECONDS FOR ME TO FINISH" thoughts, though. (Welcome to Throwback Thursday Japanse Tuin October 2014: Sunday version.)

I did, however, set my alarm to go off early on Friday because Wunderground.com told me just before I went to bed that it was set to be a clear and sunny morning not six hours from when I finally laid down my head to sleep. Huzzah! Waking up to clouds and a little drizzle those few hours later was pretty much par for the course, but never one to be deterred by a little rain (societal behaviours may differ between Scotland and the Netherlands, but the rain stays the same), I set out to hopefully catch the garden before it got too busy.

I wasn't the only person with that idea, of course, but there were few enough of us that I felt I could take my time to just meander about the pathways, absorb the very special atmosphere, and take some photos without feeling rushed. I'm still amazed how much this little phone camera seems to prefer working on dull days than on sunny ones. I wonder if its components were sourced in Scotland...









Tuesday, 20 October 2015

An Autumn Colour Treasure Hunt

Accompanied by my trusty John Steed umbrella, I left the house to meet a friend for lunch just as it had finished drizzling outside. The forecast was dull, dreich, and disheartening, so, true Scot that I am, I was armed and ready for any rainy eventuality.

But Mother Nature, being her normal capricious self, had other plans, and halfway through the meal she swept away some clouds and invited the sun to peek through, naughty matron that she is, and gave me itchy feet into the bargain.

I wasn't intending to go for a walk today, mainly because, meh, drizzle and grey skies are not really conducive to expending ambulatory energy, but on being presented with a bright blue sky and even brighter orange leaves (the first photo on the page) just as I left the café, I realised that my brain had already decided to go on an Autumn colour treasure hunt.

So away we went, Moeder Natuur and I, across the city, capturing seasonal riches where we found them, and we came back with quite the haul...



Monday, 19 October 2015

Oh I Do Like To Be Beside The Seaside

Yesterday I:
  • walked 14,000 steps, or just over, up to Scheveningen, along the beach, past the pier, and back via Madurodam. It was a bit of a dreich day, but I fancied a decent walk and going up to the beach and back is a favourite route if my aim is to get a fair amount of miles clocked, and this extended version is just over five of those on foot. Yes, it's not the most scenic route, except for the mile or so along the beach front, but it's simple and on a day like this when nature is taking some 'me' time and not caring so much about the wants of humanity, it's ideal for a good leg stretch without having to worry if there's enough juice left in the phone battery in case of emergency photo-taking. Okay, I took one photo, but there were extenuating circumstances: Many, many boats.


    (I also like walking this route, because it takes me through the shopping arcade at the pier which houses my brother's favourite chocolate shop. Well, a shop that houses his favourite chocolate. Ach, it's probably his favourite chocolate shop, too! (The Swiss brand Lindt, for those of the wondering persuasion.) I like to have a look in there when I pass to see if I can find anything that he wouldn't be able to find at home, because surprising him with something he's never seen before made from his favourite brand is cool and unusual. He's not very... shall we say excitable when it comes to receiving gifts, so presenting him with something new from his favourite sweetie brand is worth its weight in gold-wrapped Lindor.) Which takes me to my next bullet point:
  • didn't buy any chocolate for myself. And there's a cinnamon-coriander variety of Lindor just out. I am sure you will understand the will-power that had to be exerted for me to leave the shop without handing over a significant portion of my grocery budget to be the custodian (even if only for a few short days) of such chocolate perfection.
  • kept within my calorie limit. Thanks in part to, you know, not purchasing the Cinnamon Lindor of The Gods. 
  • had excellent hair. It's naturally long and straight, but I wind it up in a bun when it's damp to give it a bit of movement, and yesterday those waves were vintage Hollywood (ish) and behaved almost impeccably when I went out. (My hair is my only vanity, at least when it doesn't look like I've been dragged through a hedge backwards, which sadly happens more often than not.) Yes, it was partly because there was hardly any wind for a change, because normally when you live this close to the North Sea, Wind Happens. Every day. Sometimes gale-force, very, very occasionally the gentlest zephyr's breath. Usually it's on the blustery umbrella-mangling end of the scale, so yesterday I was surprised to find the breeze lightly caressing my hair around my face, instead of whipping it about like I was an extra in Hurricane Chasers III - The Attack Of The Mane. It was a good hair day.
  • worked-out. I hooped for half an hour or so, then made my triceps complain that it was Sunday, and surely that's supposed to be a day of rest. Mwahahahah! No chance! I am a mean muscle-mom! 
  • let all that positivity be completely eclipsed by a cute man giving me the once-over with a snide smile-snort as he saw me walk out of the chocolate shop at the beach.
Why do I let people do that to me? What I really mean is, why do I let these people into my head? I will probably never see this guy ever again. He deserves not even a pinhead-sized plot of my brain real-estate. Yet...

Just before that I was feeling pretty okay. I was just over halfway of a really good calorie-crushing walk, it hadn't rained although I brought my trusty black umbrella that makes me feel like a female John Steed (the ORIGINAL Avenger) just in case, my hair was all Rita Hayworth (redhead version), and I had left the chocolate shop after not buying anything, feeling a little virtuous in the knowledge that I didn't actually need anything there, and WHAM! Stupid head thinking that a stranger's opinion of me was more important that my own self-acknowledged awesomeness. And not only that, I let this stranger's rudeness take hold, and grow pervasive confidence-draining roots into my self-esteem. Shame on him, but shame on me, too.

Seeing a fat chick walking out of chocolate shop is quite the stereotype. I get the inherent need to judge. I don't like it, but I've been alive long enough to know how humanity works at a base level. But you know, you can think mean thoughts without letting the meanness show on the outside. You can make snarky assumptions about me and my (presumed) lifestyle without inviting the world to share in your exaggerated sneer. There's no need to mock me so openly just because you've snap-decided that the reason I look the way I look is because I'm lazy and greedy, or whatever your particular chosen cliché is.

But, underneath this disquiet, I have to realise that I can't change this man. Amongst other personality traits, he has been conditioned by society to treat certain things with contempt, and for that I can't fault him so much. I do fault him for his methods in displaying his conditioning, though. You don't have to act like a dick just because you don't like something, or don't understand something, or are uncomfortable when faced with something that confuses you.

What I can attempt to change is my own reaction when faced with emotional ineptitude in the behaviour of others towards me. It's something I do try to do, but not always successfully, and although it doesn't make a dent in the surrounding layers of ignorance, I can try to use a more positive reaction to repair some of the cracks in my own armour, and instead turn them from blemishes into beauty marks.

  • Yesterday I let myself be brought down. 
  • Today I'm going to bring myself right back up again.